I love drawing cute girls. I started my digital art journey July 2014, and now here we are. My first commission prices were set at $6 for colored artwork, now they’re at $139. 

It’s great that you guys are willing to buy my art, but I can’t help feeling unsatisfied with this ‘career’ I’ve built up.

I searched up Cute Sexy Robutt’s patreon, and they’re doing art full time now, which is great, but I can’t imagine myself doing the same.

Is it because drawing never came naturally to me? At least, not in the way reading does. It might seem like a dumb comparison, but the average 15-54 year old American spends at most 10 minutes a day reading (BLS 2018). I’ve probably spent more time reading than conversing (hooray introversion).

But thinking about it, I started reading around seven years old. My mum would give me 20 cents per book I read, and the habit stuck. Maybe that’s why I associate more as a reader than an artist. I started early. 

So if the career I want to build is centered around cute girls and art (and not reading), what exactly am I looking for? Do I want to earn as much as Cute Sexy Robutts, who earns $5,700 a month from Patreon? Join a hentai studio? Start a hentai company? Create products for artists?

What’s the point of all the entrepreneurship and self development books I read, if I can’t apply them to a career?

I’m heading to art school in a few days, and I plan to be very open about what I draw. Otherwise, it would be a wasted opportunity. Maybe there, I’ll find something I can be proud to work on as a career.